Hmmmm....I feel pretty scatter-brained tonight!  I don't really have a lot on my mind...I think I'm just real tired!  There's been quite a bit goin' on...nothing horrible...just little things that add up!  I don't know...I guess I'm just confused tonight...not about anything in particular...just in general!  My emotions are kinda crazy right now...and I think it'll do me good to just start typin'!  Even if nothing makes sense!  First of all... have you ever had someone that you looked up to, respected, and loved for so long...say something to you that just tore you in half!  No it shouldn't have even phased me...but it really hurt to hear it!  And then it just makes you wonder if you made a mistake even letting that person walk into your life?  Yeah I've learnt soo much from that someone...but was it really worth all the heartache???  There's obviously nothing I can do about it now...but sometimes I wish I could take all the memories and time I wasted back!  Then maybe it wouldn't hurt so bad when things like this happen!  And the worst part is...I know it doesn't even phase the person...they're just thinkin' of themself!  I just have to look past it and move on...and try not to let myself get upset anymore...it's just not worth it! 
      Buuuuuuuuut...other than that!!!  Another thing I was thinkin' about was how incredibly blessed I am!  Seriously...I'm such a lucky girl!  I've got friends that I'm not sure I'd make it without!  Friends I know I can count on to be there for anything and everything!  I've got family that I loved dearly...and without their constant support and love throughout all these years...I don't think I'd be who I am today!  I've got a roof over my head...and job that allows me to get the bills paid...transportation...and food in my belly each night!  I live in a pretty save town!  I don't really have to worry about someone kidknapping me (although I'm sure they'd throw me right back), or worry about walking out my door and being shot!  Yeah...part of me would LOVE to move down south...but it's pretty obvious the time just isn't right!  But that's ok...someday! :)  I've got all I need  and more!  And the thing is...without this one thing...I wouldn't have any of this...and that's God!  I know that I don't always live my life the way I should...and I mess up...A LOT!  But I have to quite thinkin' that there's always going to be a tomorrow...because someday there may not me!  At this age we tend to think we're invincible...but God has a time for everyone...and my day may be tomorrow!  So I need to get my head on straight and forget about all the little things that don't mean anything in the end...and concentrate on what's really important!  And I wanna be a good influence on others!  I want other's to look and my life...and all the happiness in it and know that they can have the same thing if they just believe and have that faith!  It's definately not easy to do especially at this age...but we all need to be ready..because we don't know what day God has planned to take us!   I just hope everyone is ready! 

   How 'bout this weather???  It's BeAuTiFuL!!!  And if the weather man is tellin' us the truth...then looks like the temps only gonna go up from here!  This week has been kinda crazy!  I think I just needed to get out in the sunshine instead of sittin' inside all day!  I was startin' to get pretty grumpy!  So it felt good to get out today!  Tonight just hangin' out with the girls!  We went cruisin' for a while, then watched American Idol!  Pretty pooped today...so I'll sleep well tonight!  Ummm...tomorrow...babysittin' late...then OC!!!  As for this weekend....pretty sure I have NO idea!!!  So we'll just have to see! :)  Anyway....hope everyone's doin' just fine!  LOVE YOU'S!

   Goodness...it's been quite some time since the last entry!  Annnnd....LiFe is just one CrAzY RIDE!!!!  Not complainin' though!  I'm in for whatever this windin' roads gonna take me!  Just as long as I've got my girls by my side...I'm GonnA BE juST FINE!!!  I love you girls soooooo much!  But anyways....other than that...I'm goin' with the flow...and tryin' to enjoy every minute of it!  Although we all have those darn bumps that sometimes slow us down!  So other than that....just a crazy couple weeks!  Oh and seriously...the weather today was AMAZINGLY BeAuTiFuL!!!!  First a lil' gloomy...good sleepin' weather...then this afternoon it was sunny and gorgous...and then this evening...a wicked thunderstorm...which I love!  Hopefully everyone's doin' just fine...and I love you ALL! 

P.S.  Alyssa...I LOVE YOU...and this is just another bump in the road...things are gonna be alright!  Soon!  I promise!

P.S.S.  Amanda...that hair is StUnNiNg????  Who is your "OH SO" talented hair-dresser?!?!?!

    Headin' down to Tennessee tomorrow morning around 5:30am!  Friday night stayin' with Brenda and she's gonna show me around!  Then Saturday I have an interview at Dollywood! Pretty sure I've got a job!  Then gonna try to get ahold of Leah and see if she's up for company!  Sunday afternoon I'll be headin' home!  It's gonna be quite a long weekend!  But anyways...final deciding on everything will be made by this weekend!  Been prayin' pretty hard about it...and have a real good feeling...soo we'll see!  All of you lookin' down on me...I'm sure you've got enough in your own life to worry about!

    If you can't see that this is an amazing experience that has practically walked into my life...then honestly...what kind of friend are you?  Sitting in Bryan Ohio babysitting isn't who I am...I'm still young...full of life and wanting soo much out of it!  There's so much i want to see and do before I have to settle down!  It's not like it's exactly easy on me...I AM leaving my family...friends...and everyone I've ever known!  It's going to take a while to get used to everything...and on my feet!  But this is what I know I have to do...and without the support of my friends...I honestly think this whole thing would break me!  But I just know it's what I have to do!  So please just be happy for me...and look past the negative! 

As we grow older things must change,
but they don't always have to end, even though
it's different now, you will
always be my best friend.